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SarahEL

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From: Minnesota

Registered: 2023-03-09

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If .... and WIndows 95

For reasons best left unanswered, I am sat here installing Windows 95 on a PC..  and I was thinking of the first time I installed it.. and my gosh, that was 28 years ago...  I mean.. I am that old, that 28 years seems like a recent memory.

It then gets me thinking.. IF people had been clear with me about my intersex birth.. if people had been honest about my abuse and let me find some therapy.. if...  then maybe I would not of been 50 when I got to be me...  I lived most my life as parts or alters ... different personalities. They each had their own social circle, email address and never met each other or really interacted.  One of them, 28 years ago, was the one installing Win95.. And so, this ramble.. is really me getting a little mad about the world and the people who I trusted in it.. there are a lot of scumbags out there and people who want to take advantage of you. I guess I am more mad at myself for allowing my own delusions and deceptions (for that is what being multiple is about) taking hold for so long. Life is not about regret and what has flowed already cannot be undone. Only the path forward is ours.. but looking at the 28 years that have elapsed between then and now.. I do feel like I have been robbed. That I have lost out.. and that my collection of handbags could be so much bigger than it is...

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Sarahel-slang term: Coming from the Gewada region language in Ethiopia
-when two people are very close friends, it is said to be Sarahel
Ex. Those two really love each other, they are sarahel